73 Fort Hood Soldiers Died Since January 2016: 4 Insider Attacks & 2 Suicides Overseas; 67 Stateside Deaths Including 34 Alleged Suicides & 1 Unsolved Homicide

“Simple enough answer, between incompetent leaders, the drugs, the gang bangers, poor units, ghetto neighborhoods, poor quality soldiers, and just being in Texas, this place is where souls go to die… Hood kills you on the inside. The outside follows shortly afterwards..” -Anonymous


Fact: In the last two years, more soldiers at Fort Hood died stateside than overseas. The six non combat deaths that occurred overseas were insider attacks (4) and death ruled suicide by the Army CID (2). The following numbers are the specifics at Fort Hood in Texas since January 2016.

73 deaths at Fort Hood since January 1, 2016. 

  • As of August 2017, 9,300 soldiers from Fort Hood were currently deployed across the globe, this is more than a 1/4 of the 35,000 troops stationed there
  • Average age of death is 28 years old
  • Average 1.5 suspected suicides per month since January 2016
  • 6 overseas deaths to include 4 insider attacks and 2 suicides
  • 67 stateside deaths to include 34 alleged suicides (13 soldiers had no known deployments; 21 soldiers had deployed to Korea, Iraq, or Afghanistan)
  • 1 unsolved homicide in Killeen, Texas (Justin Lewis)
  • 11 died in training accidents, 9 died in one training incident

6 Overseas Deaths

4 insider attacks in Afghanistan

  1. Douglas Riney, 26, US Army (ambushed by lone gunman in Afghanistan Army uniform)
  2. Tyler Iubelt, 20, US Army (suicide Bomber during base fun run, Afghanistan)
  3. John Perry, 30, US Army (suicide Bomber base fun run, Afghanistan)
  4. Allan Brown, 46, US Army (suicide Bomber base fun run, Afghanistan)

1 non combat death in Iraq

  1. Brian Odiorne, 21, US Army (ruled suicide by CID, Iraq)

1 non combat death in Korea

  1. Zachary Moore, 23, US Army (ruled suicide by CID, Korea)

67 stateside non combat deaths

3 homicides off base

  1. Jonathan Gilotti, 33, US Army Veteran (gunshot wound, suspect apprehended)
  2. Justin Lewis, 19, US Army (gunshot wound, Killeen PD, unsolved homicide)
  3. Travis Granger, 29, US Army Veteran (gunshot wound, suspect apprehended)

13 found dead on post

  1. Devin Schuette, 35, US Army (missing, found dead at on-post recreation area)
  2. Bernardino Guevara Jr., 21, US Army (gunshot wound, Sportsmen’s Center)
  3. Alexander Johnson, 21, US Army (found dead near BLORA paintball court)
  4. Dion Servant, 24, US Army (found dead in barracks)
  5. Andrew Hunt, 23, US Army (officer found dead at on post residence)
  6. Paige Fontenot Briles, 21, US Army (found dead at base housing, ruled suicide)
  7. Alex Taylor, 23, US Army (found unresponsive at place of duty on post)
  8. Zackary Partin, 24, US Army (found dead in barracks room on post)
  9. Steven Hines, 29, US Army (CID Agent found dead behind office building of apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound, death ruled suicide)
  10. Andre Nance, 34, US Army (found dead at Fort Rucker, Alabama hotel)
  11. Daniel Wildeman, 40, US Army (found unresponsive in barracks room)
  12. Justen Ogden, 22, US Army (found unresponsive at on post residence)
  13. Angel BenitezQuinones, 32, US Army (found unresponsive on post)

21 found dead off post

  1. Troy Wayman, 45, US Army (military officer found dead of apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound in Nolanville apartment, death ruled suicide)
  2. Brian Reed, 40, US Army (gunshot wound, Copperas Cove residence)
  3. Andrew Poznick, 45, US Army (military officer found dead at off-post residence near Carlisle Barracks in Pennsylvania, death ruled suicide)
  4. Steven Lewis, 33, US Army (self-inflicted wound, off-post residence, Killeen)
  5. John Stobbe, 31, US Army (death ruled suicide at off-post residence, Killeen)
  6. Marcus Nelson, 45, US Army (death ruled suicide at Bell County jail)
  7. Duane Shaw III, 34, US Army (death ruled suicide at off-post home, Temple)
  8. Calvin Aguilar, 32, US Army (found unresponsive in Copperas Cove, Texas)
  9. Nathan Berg, 20, US Army (died of gunshot wound off post in Killeen)
  10. Bradley Acker, 25, US Army (death ruled suicide, Copperas Cove, Texas)
  11. Douglas Bailey, 24, US Army (found dead at off post residence)
  12. Kevin Paulino, 24, US Army (died of self-inflicted gunshot wound in Indiana)
  13. Korey James, 21, US Army (death ruled suicide at off post residence, Killeen)
  14. Wanya Bruns, 20, US Army (self-inflicted gunshot wound off-post, Killeen)
  15. Randal Anderson, 22, US Army (died from gunshot wound off-post, Killeen)
  16. Christie Anderson, 44, US Army (found dead at off post residence, Killeen)
  17. Jon Bullard, 40, US Army (found unresponsive at home in Belton, Texas)
  18. Devon Tucker, 21, US Army (found unresponsive at home in Copperas Cove)
  19. Deangelo Mathis, 22, US Army (found unresponsive in Sly County, Georgia)
  20. John Hatfield, 27, US Army (died of a gunshot wound off-post in Killeen)
  21. Luke Toomey, 21, US Army (found unresponsive at home in Copperas Cove)

11 died in training accidents

  1. Christine Armstrong, 27, US Army (died in flood training incident)
  2. Brandon Banner, 22, US Army (died in flood training incident)
  3. Miguel Colonvazquez, 38, US Army (died in flood training incident)
  4. Isaac Deleon, 19, US Army (died in flood training incident)
  5. Zachary Fuller, 23, US Army (died in flood training incident)
  6. Eddy Gates, 20, US Army (died in flood training incident)
  7. Tysheena James, 21, US Army (died in flood training incident)
  8. Yingming Sun, 25, US Army (died in flood training incident)
  9. Mitchell Winey, 21, US Military Academy (died in flood training incident)
  10. Michael Garcia, 29, US Army (died in vehicle training accident)
  11. Sean Devoy, 28, US Army (died in fall during helicopter hoist training)

3 died from unspecified medical issues

  1. Daniel Monibe, 32, US Army (died of illness)
  2. Kai Yancey, 26, US Army (died of medical illness)
  3. Derrick Walker, 40, US Army (died of a long-term illness)

7 died in motorcycle accidents

  1. Ellsworth Raup, 33, US Army (rear ended a van in Killeen, Texas)
  2. Antino Glass, 34, US Army (struck livestock on Fort Hood)
  3. Logan Rainwater, 24, US Army (SUV turned in front of him in Killeen)
  4. Stacy Hardy, 20, US Army (slammed into minivan, eluding Killeen PD)
  5. Jonathan Garcia, 29, US Army (single-vehicle motorcycle crash, for reasons unclear, bike lost control on curve, veered off road, & struck cable barrier)
  6. Anthony Lovell, 40, US Army (single-vehicle motorcycle crash, failed to negotiate a turn, left the roadway, went airborne into creek in Killeen)
  7. James Smith, 24, US Army (single-vehicle motorcycle crash, lost control of bike on I-35 in Temple)

4 died in automobile accidents

  1. Sean Van Der Wal, 25, US Army (fatal auto collision with truck on I-35; driver & Fort Hood soldier Timothy Corder charged with intoxication manslaughter)
  2. Dougal Mitchell, 32, US Army (driving the wrong way on State Highway 195, vehicle collided with another driven by Mikeshia Ruiz, 23, who died at scene)
  3. Dakota Stump, 19, US Army (missing for 3 weeks, fatal auto accident on post that occurred night he went missing, family wants missing ‘Warrior Alert’ law)
  4. Barron Von Reichelt, 24, US Army (died from injuries suffered in a single vehicle automobile crash on South Range Road at Fort Hood)

2 died in a swimming incidents

  1. David Ananou, 30, US Army (death by apparent drowning at Temple Lake Park)
  2. Sameer Chalise, 28, US Army (died due to injuries while swimming, Mansfield)

1 died unexpectedly out of state

  1. Sean Callahan, 31, US Army (passed away unexpectedly in Iowa)

1 declared dead after missing

  1. Darius Cooper, 40, US Army (declared dead by board of inquiry after went missing when car swept away in low water crossing)

1 self inflicted & officer involved shooting

  1. Alva Gwinn, 39, US Army (accused of sex crime; command directed wellness check; shot by police & shot self after high speed chase 1 month before trial)

Learn more:
Army Soldiers at Fort Hood in Texas Are Dying at Alarming Rates Stateside
Violent Crime, Suicide, and Non Combat Death at Fort Hood, Texas (US Army)
Army Pfc LaVena Johnson of Fort Campbell Died of Non Combat Related Injuries in Iraq, Death Ruled Suicide But Independent Autopsy Revealed Rape & Murder (2005)
Military Policy and Legislation Considerations for the Investigations of Non Combat Death, Homicide, and Suicide of US Service Members
Family seeks answers after NC soldier Justin Lewis slain in Texas
Gangs in the US Army Documentary
The Fort Hood Fallen on Facebook

A Month in Review: In the News on Military Justice for All (November 2017)


Number Of US Troops Killed In Plane Crashes Jumps In 2017
Fort Stewart soldier injured during live-fire exercise
Soldier killed over weekend in Texas car crash
One Air Force pilot dead, another injured after plane crash in Texas
US Navy Plane with 11 Aboard Crashes Into Pacific; 8 Found Alive
Navy Releases Names Of 3 Sailors Killed In Crash Off Japan
Soldier who survived crash, being run over by bus: ‘God was over me’
Fort Carson soldier identified as snowboarder who died at Monarch Ski Area
Horror as US Air Force woman killed in early morning car crash close to RAF Lakenheath
Army report blames ‘human factors’ for deadly Apache crash in 2015

Lackland Air Force Base Nurse Nonnie Dotson Mysteriously Disappeared, Last Seen November 19th, 2006 in Littleton, Colorado While on Leave
Disappeared: Disabled Army Veteran Joseph Weber IV Missing from San Francisco, California Since November 24, 2014

Homicide (Active Duty):
Reality TV star killed Coast Guard member in DWI wreck, police say
Slain Westchester soldier remembered as a loving family man and a ‘corn-fed giant’
Determining what Happened to Staff Sgt. Logan J. Melgar
Marine military policeman arrested on strangling charge
Army medic charged with raping, killing 9-month-old daughter
Judge refuses to release triple-murder suspect with strong military record
Sailor accused of murder at Navy party shot in self-defense, lawyer says
Police have ‘person of interest’ in Marine’s shooting death
Warrant officer accused of murder pleads not guilty
Former Marine who served time for killing man steps down from school board post
Texas mass shooting highlights failings of military justice
Pentagon IG: Military failed to report 31 percent of convictions that should bar gun ownership
Former NASA employee gets 20 years in Gladstone slaying
Dennis Ott killed his wife, Phonthip Ott; Sentenced to 25 years to life; Stepdaughters vow to fight parole
Prosecutor: Navy Petty Officer Rebecca Braswell Considered a Pure Sociopath
Snapped: Preview – Keanna Barnes
Love triangle led to murder of transsexual model Diane Delia
A1C Rhianda Dillard, US Air Force, Found Dead in Offutt AFB Dorm Room; Airman Timothy Wilsey Charged with Desertion and Pre-Meditated Murder (2016)
SSgt Steven Williams, US Air Force, Pleaded No Contest to the Second Degree Murder of his USAF Veteran Ex-Wife Tricia Todd in Florida (2016)
Miranda Nichols, US Army, Shot & Killed by Army Boyfriend Samuel Tellu in an Apparent Domestic Dispute, Tellu Found Dead in Vehicle (2012)
Navy Lt CDR Fred Trayers Stabbed to Death in California by Wife Jennifer Who was Angered by Infidelity with Fellow Navy Doctor (2010)
US Marine LCpl Maria Lauterbach and Unborn Child were Murdered; Fellow Marine Cesar Laurean Found Guilty of First Degree Murder, Sentenced to Life in Prison (2007)
Adrianne Jones Murdered by Air Force Academy Cadet David Graham and Naval Academy Cadet Diane Zamora; Motive Was Jealousy (1995)
Fort Carson Army Soldier Christopher Walton Shot Outside Night Club in Colorado Springs; Leroy Davis Sentenced to 20 Years in Leavenworth by Military Courts (1991)
Army Spouse Melinda Stewart, Army Sgt. Daniel Stewart, Jill Yousaf & Army Soldier James Catlin Conspired and Murdered Homeless Colorado Teen Maggie Fetty (1991)
Joseph Snodgrass, US Air Force, Hired Hitmen to Murder Wife Julie at Clark Air Force Base in the Philippines for the $400,000 Life Insurance Payout (1991)
Navy Wife Dina Kichler Raped & Murdered in Mayport, Florida by John Brewer Shortly After her Husband Deployed for Six Months on USS Forestall (1990)
Army Reservist & Drexel University Security Guard David Dickson Murdered Student Deborah Wilson & Stole Her Sneakers, Sentenced to Life in Prison (1984)
Lt Verle Lee Hartley, US Navy, Died of Arsenic Poisoning in 1982, NCIS Cold Case Squad Solved Murder 13 Years Later, Wife Pamela Plead Guilty (1982)
The 7 best military stories from the glory days of ‘Unsolved Mysteries’
Snapped: Sneak Peek – Did Michelle Do It?

Homicide (Veterans):
Convicted murderer attended Bergdahl’s sentencing hearing: report
Air Force retiree from Beaver County, wife among dead in Texas church massacre
Acquitted in 2010 murder, man goes to jail for attacking Columbus police officer
Coroner Identifies Remains of Missing Retired Army Veteran Found in Southern California Desert
Deaths of couple found in Otay Mesa West home ruled murder-suicide
Death of retired Killeen teacher still under investigation
Family pleads for help after Army veteran slain while helping stranger
Army veteran charged with killing man over drugs near Baldwin Park
Evidence suppression hearing set for Dec. 4 in Luc Tieman murder case
Manson family victim Jay Sebring honed hair-styling skills while in the Navy
Lee Harvey Oswald: 5 Fast Facts You Need to Know
Army vet and former Minn. legislative aide charged in fatal shooting of his student girlfriend
Funeral services set for slain detective
Atheist Activist Kills Wife and Himself in “Suspected Murder-Suicide”
DPS Trooper killed, suspect arrested
Kidnapped Joint Expeditionary Base Little Creek worker died of ‘undetermined trauma’
CVS murder case scheduled for 5-day trial in March
Son of Couple Found Dead in Murder-Suicide Speaks
Maura Murray was Probably Murdered: “She Got Into a Car with Somebody and was Met with Foul Play”
Snapped: After the Verdict – Karen Sanchez
Woman’s sentence reduced in husband’s murder
Army Reserve Veteran Micah Johnson Murdered Five Dallas Police Officers During Black Lives Matter Protest in Texas (2016)
Disabled WWII Army Veteran Richard Englander Murdered by Live-In Caregiver Sara Moore in New York 5 Days After Move In Date, Sentenced to 25 Years to Life in Prison (2014)
Army Veteran Patricia MacCallum Murdered Husband Christopher for the Children, Social Security Benefits, and Life Insurance; Sentenced to Fifty Years in Oregon Prison (2012)
Retired Marine Brian Brimager Pleaded Guilty to the Second Degree Murder of Yvonne Baldelli in Panama; Sentenced to 26 Years in Federal Prison (2011)
Dishonorably Discharged Marine & Fugitive David Bieber Guilty of Murdering Police Officer in Great Britain, Charged with Two Murder for Hire Schemes in Florida (1995)

Non Combat Death:
Fort Bliss soldier dies in Iraq in noncombat incident
Army sergeant from Brooklyn dies at Iraq border base
Riverside soldier’s death while deployed in Iraq is under investigation
Additional remains of soldier killed in Niger found as US investigates ambush
Did US soldiers caught in Niger ambush fall into enemy hands?
Family Of Ranger Killed By Friendly Fire In Afghanistan ‘Completely At Peace’
Army Specialist Ronald Murray Jr. Died of a Non-Combat Related Incident in Kuwait Supporting Operation Inherent Resolve (2016)
Army Staff Sgt. Kevin McEnroe Died of Wounds Sustained When Team’s Convoy Came Under Fire Entering Jordan Military Base (2016)
Army Staff Sgt. James Moriarty Died of Wounds Sustained When Team’s Convoy Came Under Fire Entering Jordan Military Base (2016)
Army Staff Sgt. Matthew Lewellen Died of Wounds Sustained When Team’s Convoy Came Under Fire Entering Jordan Military Base (2016)
Air Force Captain William DuBois Died When F-16 Aircraft Crashed in Jordan; USAF Accident Investigation Board Ruled Rapid Descent Caused Crash (2014)
SSG Anton Phillips, US Army, Found Stabbed to Death at FOB Mehtar Lam, Afghanistan; CID Offering $25,000 Reward for Information (2009)
Spc Christine Ndururi, US Army, Died of Non Combat Related Illness at Camp Arifjan, Kuwait (2007)
Army Staff Sgt Paul Norris Shot Spc Kamisha Block Five Times in Iraq, Then Killed Self (2007)
SSG Jeannette Dunn, US Army, Died of a Non Combat Related Injury in Taji, Iraq (2006)

Overseas Crime:
Army investigating after soldier found dead by Landstuhl train tracks Oct. 9
Okinawa-based Marines charged with credit-card fraud by Tokyo police
Vandals strike vehicles, homes affiliated with the US military on Okinawa
U.S. military in Japan banned from alcohol after 21-year-old Marine arrested for fatal crash
The probe into whether SEAL Team 6 commandos killed an American soldier in Mali, explained
Ex-US military base worker who raped and murdered a 20-year-old woman jailed for life in Japan
No lawyer for detained American accused of fighting with ISIS
Prosecutor seeks to investigate Afghan war crimes allegations – and claims of US torture

Sex Crimes:
Navy officer disputes attempted rape charge with ’bizarre’ defense
Fort Eustis soldier arrested in rape case from 2009
Oxford County investigating Sheriff Wayne Gallant
USAF master sergeant given six months for having sex with same child as a youth pastor
Air Force physical therapist convicted of possessing child porn, sentenced to confinement
Air Force: Fired commander tried to hide relationship with enlisted airman
Navy man investigated for child porn; photos possibly taken at San Diego home
Air Force Academy Informants Are at Center of Child Porn Case
Disgraced Marine charged with sex crimes involving minors
Kansas Army Guard ignores warning signs of flight surgeon’s sexual misconduct
Local victim of military sexual assault speaks out
Victims of sex assaults in military are mostly men

Suicide Stateside:
Airman Found Dead Near Blacks Creek Reservoir
Report: CID agent who died by suicide resisted seeking help
Suicide suspected in death of airman stationed at Little Rock Air Force Base
Midshipman found dead at Prince George’s shooting range
Sailor found dead in a Virginia Beach hotel day before she was to report for duty
Military intelligence Airman found dead in work area at Fort Gordon
Body found in bay confirmed to be missing Navy sailor
Officials investigating Thanksgiving Day death of Fort Bragg soldier
Sailor found dead on USS John C. Stennis in Washington state
Authorities investigate after airman found dead at Altus Air Force Base
Army Pfc. David Winchester Found Dead in Barracks at Fort Bragg, North Carolina (2016)
Army Infantryman Sgt. 1st Class Grant Shanaman of Fort Bragg, North Carolina Found Dead in Off Post Residence (2016)
Fort Hood Infantryman Pvt. Kevin Paulino, US Army, Died of Gunshot Wound in Peru, Indiana; Police Confirm Suicide (2016)
Air Force Major Melissa Birtzer Found Dead at Eglin Air Force Base Range, No Foul Play Suspected (2012)
Sycamore Twp. father suing Pentagon, says son deserves Purple Heart
Veteran Who Killed Himself Amid UC Davis Scandal Discriminated Against For Service, Lawsuit Claims

Unsolved Homicide:
Sneak peek: A Brother’s Mission
Murder still unsolved after 10 years
Murder remains unsolved 20 years later
CID Offers $25,000 Reward in Afghanistan Murder
Looking Back: Women’s Army Corp officer found slain near 12th, Grange in 1943

September: U.S. Department of Defense Casualties Report from September 11, 2001 to Present (2017)

August Casualties Reports from September 11, 2001 to Present:

September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2001)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2002)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2003)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2004)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2005)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2006)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2007)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2008)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2009)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2010)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2011)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2012)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2013)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2014)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2015)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2016)
September: Department of Defense Casualties Report (2017)

Total Non Combat Deaths in August from 2001 to Present: 136

  • Medical:  (%)
  • Accidents:  (%)
  • Vehicle Accidents:  (%)
  • Helicopter Crashes:  (%)
  • Non Combat Related Incidents:  (%)
  • Unspecified Causes:  (%)

Total Combat Deaths in September from 2001 to Present:

Non Combat Deaths of Female Soldiers 2001 to Present:

Non Combat Deaths of Female Soldiers in the US Military (Iraq)
Non Combat Deaths of Female Soldiers in the US Military (Afghanistan)
Non Combat Deaths of Female Soldiers in the US Military (Other Areas)

Total Non Combat Deaths of Female Soldiers 2001 to Present:

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2001 ():

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2002 (0):

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2003 (13):

09/27/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Lisa Andrews, 24, NCD, Overland Park, Kansas (on-leave), Kansas Army Reserve

09/26/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Robert Rooney, 43, NCD, Shuabai Port, Kuwait, Massachusetts Army National Guard

09/25/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Michael Andrade, 28, NCD, Iraq, Rhode Island Army National Guard

09/23/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Brian Faunce, 28, NCD, Iraq, Fort Carson, Colorado

09/17/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Craig Ivory, 26, NCD, Kuwait, Vicenza, Italy

09/17/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Alyssa Peterson, 27, NCD, Iraq, Fort Campbell, Kentucky

09/12/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Henry Ybarra III, 32, NCD, Iraq, Illesheim, Germany

09/11/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Joseph Robsky Jr, 31, NCD, Iraq, Fort Irwin, California

09/10/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Jarrett Thompson, 27, NCD, Iraq, Delaware Army Reserve

09/04/2003:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Cameron Sarno, 43, NCD, Kuwait, Nevada Army Reserve

09/03/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Sean Cataudella, 28, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood, Texas

09/03/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Christopher Sisson, 20, NCD, Iraq, Fort Bragg, North Carolina

09/02/2003:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Mitchell Lane, 34, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Bragg, North Carolina

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2004 (9):

09/29/2004:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Gregory Cox, 21, NCD, Iraq, Schweinfurt, Germany

09/29/2004:  DoD Identifies Marine Casualty: Kenneth Sickels, 20, NCD, Iraq, Twentynine Palms, California

09/27/2004:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Clifford Moxley Jr, 51, NCD, Iraq, Pennsylvania Army National Guard

09/25/2004:  DoD Identifies Marine Casualty: Ryan Leduc, 28, NCD, Iraq, Camp Lejeune, North Carolina

09/15/2004:  DoD Identifies Marine Casualty: Dominic Brown, 19, NCD, Iraq, Camp Pendleton, California

09/15/2004:  DoD Identifies Marine Casualty: Michael Halal, 22, NCD, Iraq, Camp Lejeune, North Carolina

09/14/2004:  DoD Identifies Marine Casualty: Cesar Machado-Olmos, 20, NCD, Iraq, Camp Lejeune, North Carolina

09/14/2004:  DoD Identifies Navy Casualty: David Cedergren, 25, NCD, Iraq, 2nd Marine Division Fleet, Marine Forces Atlantic

09/08/2004:  DoD Identifies Air Force Casualty: John Boria, 29, NCD, Qatar, Grand Forks Air Force Base, North Dakota

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2005 (12):

09/28/2005:  DoD Identifies Navy Casualty: Robert Macrum, 22, NCD, Arabian Gulf, USS Princeton

09/26/2005:  DoD Identifies Army Casualties: John Flynn, 36, and Patrick Stewart, 35, NCD, Afghanistan, Nevada Army National Guard

09/26/2005:  DoD Identifies Army Casualties: Adrian Stump, 22, and Tane Baum, 30, NCD, Afghanistan, Oregon Army National Guard

09/26/2005:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Kenneth Ross, 24, NCD, Afghanistan, Giebelstadt, Germany

09/23/2005:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Travis Arndt, 23, NCD, Iraq, Montana Army National Guard

09/13/2005:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Christopher Everett, 23, NCD, Iraq, Texas Army National Guard

09/07/2005:  DoD Identifies Navy Casualty: Robert Martens, 20, NCD, Iraq, Camp Lejeune, North Carolina

09/06/2005:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Luke Williams, 35, NCD, Iraq, Fort Stewart, Georgia

09/06/2005:  DoD Identifies Marine Casualty: Ryan Nass, 21, NCD, Afghanistan, Kaneohe Bay, Hawaii

09/02/2005:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Jason Ames, 21, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2006 (10):

09/30/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Christopher Blaney, 19, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood, Texas

09/29/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualties: Edward Reynolds Jr, 27, and Henry Paul, 24, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood, Texas

09/25/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Charles Jones, 29, NCD, Iraq, Kentucky Army National Guard

09/25/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Bobby Callahan, 22, NCD, Iraq, Fort Drum, New York

09/19/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: James Worster, 24, NCD, Iraq, Fort Carson, Colorado

09/15/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: David Ramsey, 27, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

09/14/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Jeremy DePottey, 26, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Drum, New York

09/07/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Marshall Gutierrez, 41, NCD, Camp Virginia, Area Support Group, Arijan, Kuwait

09/06/2006:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Hannah Gunterman, 20, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2007 (25):

09/24/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: David Watson, 29, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

09/23/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Jonathan Lankford, 42, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base San Antonio (Fort Sam Houston), Texas

09/22/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Roselle Hoffmaster, 32, NCD, Iraq, Fort Drum, New York

09/22/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: John Young, 24, NCD, Iraq, Fort Drum, New York

09/21/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Graham McMahon, 22, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

09/20/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Edmund Jeffers, 23, NCD, Iraq, Fort Carson, Colorado

09/19/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Matthew Emerson, 20, NCD, Iraq, Fort Bliss, Texas

09/18/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Brandon Thorsen, 22, NCD, Iraq, Fort Bliss, Texas

09/17/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Michael Townes, 29, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood

09/17/2007:  DoD Identifies Marine Casualty: Terrence Allen, 21, NCD, Iraq, Camp Lejeune, North Carolina

09/13/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualties: Yance Gray, 26, Gregory Rivera-Santiago, 26, Michael Hardegree, 21, Omar Mora, 28, Nicholas Patterson, 24, Ari Brown-Weeks, 23, and Steven Elrod, 20, NCDs, Iraq, Fort Bragg, North Carolina

09/11/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Sammie Phillips, 19, NCD, Iraq, Kentucky Army National Guard

09/11/2007:  DoD Identifies Marine Casualty: Lance Clark, 21, NCD, Iraq, Camp Pendleton, California

09/10/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Marisol Heredia, 19, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

09/07/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: David Cooper Jr, 36, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

09/05/2007:  DoD Identifies Air Force Casualty: Patrick Magnani, 38, NCD, Afghanistan, Aviano Air Base, Italy

09/05/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Christopher Patton, 21, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood, Texas

09/03/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Justin Sanders, 22, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood, Texas

09/03/2007:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Travis Virgadamo, 19, NCD, Iraq, Fort Stewart, Georgia

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2008 (20):

09/29/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Jamel Bryant, 22, NCD, Iraq, Baumholder, Germany

09/23/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Sidney Marceaux Jr, 69, NCD, Kuwait, Warrior Transition Brigade, Walter Reed Army MC, Maryland

09/23/2008:  DoD Identifies Navy Casualty: Matthew O’Bryant, 22, NCD, Marriott Bombing, Islamabad, Pakistan, Fort Meade, Maryland

09/21/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualties: Daniel Eshbaugh, 43, Brady Rudolph, 37, and Michael Thompson, 23, NCDs, Iraq, Oklahoma Army National Guard

09/21/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualties: Corry Edwards, 38, Anthony Mason, 37, Julio Ordonez, 54, and Robert Vallejo II, 28, NCDs, Iraq, Texas Army National Guard

09/19/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: James Wiley, 46, NCD, Afghanistan, New York Army National Guard

09/18/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Darrick Wright, 37, NCD, Iraq, Army Corp of Engineers, Alabama

09/18/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Leonard Gulczynski I, 19, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

09/16/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Ralph Marino, 46, NCD, Camp Arifjan, Kuwait

09/15/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualties: Darris Dawson, 24, and Wesley Durbin, 26, NCD, Iraq, Fort Stewart, Georgia

09/15/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Daniel Sexton, 53, NCD, Iraq, Joint Base Elmendorf-Richardson, Alaska

09/08/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Jordan Thibeault, 22, NCD, Iraq, Baumholder, Germany

09/04/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Patrick May, 22, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood, Texas

09/01/2008:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Jorge Feliz Nieve, 26, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood, Texas

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2009 (8):

09/23/2009:  DoD Identifies Air Force Casualty: James Hornbarger, 33, NCD, Mediterranean, Beale Air Force Base, California

09/21/2009:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Michael Cote Jr, 20, NCD, Iraq, Fort Wainwright, Alaska

09/21/2009:  DoD Identifies Air Force Casualty: Matthew Courtois, 22, NCD, Kuwait, Mountain Home Air Force Base, Idaho

09/17/2009:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Robert Gordon II, 22, NCD, Afghanistan, Joint Base Lewis-McCord, Washington

09/16/2009:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Demetrius Void, 20, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Hood, Texas

09/14/2009:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Duane Thornsbury, 30, NCD, Iraq, Fort Carson, Colorado

09/04/2009:  DoD Identifies Army Casualties: Todd Selge, 25, and Jordan Shay, 22, NCDs, Iraq, Joint Base Lewis-McChord, Washington

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2010 (19):

09/27/2010:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Marc Whisenant, 23, NCD, Kuwait, Florida Army National Guard

09/27/2010:  DOD Identifies Army Casualties: John Carrillo Jr, 20, and Gebrah Noonan, 26, NCDs, Iraq, Fort Stewart, Georgia

09/27/2010:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Clinton Springer II, 21, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Drum, New York

09/22/2010:  DOD Identifies Army Casualties: Robert Baldwin, 39, Matthew Wagstaff, 34, Jonah McClellan, 26, Joshua Powell, 25, and Marvin Calhoun Jr, 23, NCDs, Afghanistan, Fort Campbell, Kentucky

09/22/2010:  DOD Identifies Navy Casualty: Brendan Looney, 29, NCD, Afghanistan, West Coast Based SEAL Team

09/22/2010:  DOD Identifies Navy Casualties: David McLendon, 30, Adam Smith, 26, and Denis Miranda, 24, NCDs, East Coast Based SEAL Team

09/20/2010:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Paul Carron, 33, NCD, Afghanistan, Vilseck, Germany

09/17/2010:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: John Burner III, 32, NCD, Iraq, Fort Bragg, North Carolina

09/16/2010:  DOD Identifies Air Force Casualty: James Hansen, 25, NCD, Iraq, Eglin Air Force Base, Florida

09/16/2010:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Ryan Hopkins, 21, NCD, Iraq, Fort Carson, Colorado

09/09/2010:  DOD Identifies Army Casualties: Philip Jenkins, 26, and James McClamrock, 22, NCDs, Iraq, Schofield Barracks, Hawaii

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2011 (6):

09/21/2011:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Estevan Altamirano, 30, NCD, Iraq, Fort Hood, Texas

09/16/2011:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Chester Stoda, 32, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Hood, Texas

09/12/2011:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Keith Rudd, 36, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Bragg, North Carolina

09/08/2011:  DOD Identifies Navy Casualty: James Crawford, 50, NCD, Bahrain, Combined Maritime Forces Coalition Coordination Center

09/08/2011:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Kevin Shumaker, 24, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Drum, New York

09/07/2011:  DOD Identifies Navy Casualty: James Coker, 59, NCD, Afghanistan, Army Corps of Engineers, Virginia

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2012 (4):

09/26/2012:  DOD Identifies Navy Casualty: Dion Roberts, 25, NCD, Afghanistan, East Coast Naval Special Warfare Unit

09/09/2012:  DOD Identifies Army Casualties: Jose Montenegro Jr, 31, and Thalia Ramirez, 28, NCDs, Afghanistan, Fort Bragg, North Carolina

09/03/2012:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: Kyle Rookey, 23, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Carson, Colorado

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2013 (5):

09/24/2013:  DoD Identifies Navy Casualties: Landon Jones, 35, and Jonathan Gibson, 32, NCD, Central Red Sea, Naval Air Station North Island, San Diego, California

09/21/2013:  DOD Identifies Army Casualty: William Brown III, 44, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Polk, Louisiana

09/17/2013:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Randall Lane, 43, NCD, Afghanistan, Indiana Army National Guard

09/14/2013:  DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Robert Thomas Jr, 24, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Bliss, Texas

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2014 (0):

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2015 (2):

Sept. 29, 2015 DoD Identifies Navy Casualty: Philip Manes, 21, NCD, Bahrain, USS Gladiator (MCM 11)

Sept. 22, 2015 DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Kyle Gilbert, 24, NCD, Afghanistan, Fort Drum, New York

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2016 (3):

Sept. 22, 2016 DoD Identifies Navy Casualty: Devon Faulkner, 24, NCD, Mediterranean Sea, USS Wasp

Sept. 18, 2016 DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Travis Tamayo, 32, NCD, United Arab Emirates, Fort Gordon, Georgia

Sept. 11, 2016 DoD Identifies Army Casualty: Jeffrey Cooper, 25, NCD, Kuwait, Fort Campbell, Kentucky

Non Combat Deaths of Soldiers in September 2017 ():

62 Percent of Military Sex Assault Reports Result in Retaliation

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Military personnel who report rape and sexual assault are 12 times more likely to face retaliation than see their attacker convicted, according to a new report released Monday by Human Rights Watch, which interviewed roughly 150 current and recently retired service members who reported sexual assault.

The 118-page report found 62 percent said they faced retaliation after they made their report, listing examples ranging from threats and vandalism to discharges and criminal charges.

One of the women interviewed was Lt. Col. Teresa James, the highest ranking officer to come forward with a rape claim in the National Guard, according to a recent report by the Guard. The News4 I-Team first brought you her story when she said she believes her 34-year military career with the West Virginia National Guard was destroyed after she reported her rape.

Lt. Col. James attended the news conference and told the…

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Murderers Who Have Served in the U.S. Military: A Database

American Journal of Arcane and Obscure Research

By J.T.O.

America has a long history of blaming homicide and other violent crime on subcultural and/or cutting-edge art and stigmatized fans of it. Plays, novels, movies, rock music, comic books, TV, psychedelia, punk rock, heavy metal, role-playing games, rap, goth, video games–each in turn has been claimed, often by some of the highest officials in the land, to be turning children into criminals with depictions of sex, violence or the occult. As none of these artforms literally causes anyone to do anything, the claim typically involves some form of alleged brainwashing. In many cases, individual artworks have been blamed for specific crimes, by authorities and survivors, by perpetrators, or by both. Various forms of censorship and prohibition of art has resulted, particularly in the form of rating systems.

At the same time, American society is highly resistant to placing similar blame on cultural institutions that directly and openly promote…

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MRCC Director Games System by Getting Veteran Detained for Suicide Intervention

Veterans Crisis Line

Update: The MRCC Director, Panayiota Bertzikis, is threatening veteran with legal action for telling the truth.

This story is the epitome of unhealthy in the MST community. Panayiota Bertizikis committed the ultimate betrayal and proved that she is not healthy enough to help other veterans in crisis. If you reach out to this advocate feeling suicidal, she will send you an e-mail referring you to the Veterans Crisis Line then contact the police instead of helping the veteran work through the crisis. Once the police are contacted, they will come to your home, force you outside, make you get in the police cruiser, and take you to the hospital so you can get evaluated. Not only is this harmful to MST survivors but it is a very inappropriate response to a veteran who may be reaching out for help.

If a veteran tells you that they are feeling suicidal or even hints to feeling suicidal, please do not ever call the police without checking with the veteran first, or referring them to the Veteran Crisis Hotline (1-800-273-TALK). Once you contact the police, the protocol is for the police to take the veteran to the hospital. This is not always the best response and can actually make things worse for a MST survivor. Why? Because you lose your freedom of movement. Taking control away from a MST survivor is the worst possible thing a person could do, especially when the original trigger of the PTSD was due to betrayal, losing control, & feeling overwhelmed.

Once the police are contacted, the veteran must go with them in the back of the cruiser (locked up), must go to the hospital to be evaluated (loss of movement), must take off all of their clothes (in case you hang yourself with your jacket), has to surrender their phone (you might beat yourself with the phone?), and then has to wait for others to determine whether or not you are suicidal. But before they make the decision, you have to answer hundreds of questions that brings up all the things that gave you PTSD to explain why the veteran is responding in said fashion. Having feelings of suicide is completely different then someone who is going to commit suicide. If I was going to commit suicide, I would not tell anyone that I was going to do it, I would just do it.

Panayiota Bertzikis acted irresponsible when she automatically contacted the police without checking in with the veteran first, or checking with others like friends and family as to the state of mind of said veteran. She actually made the PTSD worse by pulling this move. Not only is she harmful to other veterans but she is vindictive. Please steer clear of this person. Of course the veteran was released from the hospital with no incident because the professionals understood the vindictive nature of this advocate’s response to a veteran in crisis. As a matter of fact, they recognized that because she ignored the veteran then sicked the cops on them that she was in fact the cause of the original trigger.

Kudos to the local police department for treating the veteran with kindness, empathy, and understanding. The police department was simply following protocol because they don’t know if the veteran is suicidal or not. They must take every precaution to ensure that the veteran is safe given the high suicide rates among veterans. Despite the trigger of being detained, the veteran submitted to the procedure and explained what caused the initial PTSD crisis. Luckily, the officers who responded to the call were true professionals and very understanding of why the veteran was upset with this particular advocate.

The only positive that comes from this situation is that the veteran learned of some local resources available to them year round. So now the veteran has both the Department of Veteran Affairs to turn to and this local crisis center. The veteran can contact this local agency in the future and they will come to the home and do an assessment and help you work through the downward spirals of PTSD that do make you feel suicidal. Suicide is not the answer. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. But it is completely normal when one has PTSD to feel suicidal and want to die just so the pain will end.

It’s Against Our Policy

How many jobs have I worked at where “It’s Against our Policy” ended it all. The ironic thing: nothing is ever in writing, standards have not been set (or the boss can do whatever but control you), and once you agree to volunteer, you lose your freedom of speech. Never mind the abuse and bullying that you are trying to address on your own because everybody wants to look the other way and say ‘It’s none of my business’. Shall we wait until someone has committed suicide simply because they can’t take it anymore?

Every time I have blown the whistle on the inner dynamics of a job, an organization, and now a movement, I have been the one who was punished for speaking out. What organization can truly represent veterans yet tell their volunteers that they must endure bullying and stalking as part of the job. If you haven’t noticed yet, we are fighting bullying and stalking for a living. We fight for that for our clients. Yet, as advocates, we are not allowed to address those who are treading on us. That is an organization that I do not want to work for.

I have a lot to give any organization but enduring abuse, bullying, and control tactics is not one of them. I am free to choose my path to happiness.  And if that includes getting rid of one more person who uses PTSD as an excuse to abuse others, then see ya. I am going to be happy. I am going to succeed regardless of what you use to control me and punish me with. It’s called karma.

You are no different then military leadership. You claim to be a veteran’s advocate yet sell out someone who has been totally loyal to you. You suspend an e-mail account before even talking to the volunteer. How is that justice? Isn’t that what the military did to you? Don’t we want to provide ourselves and clients with the very rights that everyone deserves. Is this MRCC policy?

Any agency that proclaims to stand for justice needs to have those same standards for the people who volunteer for them. Where is the appreciation for what the volunteer has done? This is how you show thanks to those who volunteer for your agency? Who complained about me Pan? Was it one of the bullies I am holding accountable for their behavior? How convenient. Once again, someone cowering to the abuse. Never mind the impact this has on veterans or active duty troops.

I think I know why you wanted me to not talk about the bullying from these fools now. You are just as bad as they are. You are a bully too. You did the same thing to me with your bully crew too.  Not only was I dealing with you and your bullies but I was dealing with MST ‘Facebook Advocate’ bullies that hate you. Now, I am smack dab in the middle of your freaking mess.  Thanks for selling me out. Everything happens for a reason.

I can’t believe someone who has been so mean to others would even question what I am doing to hold the same people that bullied them accountable. All along I have been asked to just ignore and the behavior has only escalated. Now that I finally hold them accountable, I get punished. That is the epitome of betrayal. But, I have also seen how awful you have been to some survivors which may be the reason that so many hate you, hence now hate me.

I don’t know what the hell is going on with you people but you can count me out of your sick little games. I will be so much happier not having to deal with you making mountains out of mole hills when we have much bigger things to focus on. Nothing can stop me from advocating for veterans just like nothing can stop you. I have freedom of speech and freedom to do what I want as long as it doesn’t infringe on other’s rights.

Everything Happens for a Reason

I was always told that I should trust my gut instincts. And I have had them for quite some time. But, I always question myself because of the trauma I experienced in the military. I was forced to deal with daily harassment after reporting the sexual assault so my defense mechanisms went haywire and created this monster known as PTSD. Had I been taken care of after reporting the assault, I would have been able to prevent the acute stress from becoming a life long PTSD. Unfortunately, we are forced to endure whatever they dole out including but not limited to professional and personal retaliation. Hence the reason the PTSD is so bad.

It’s no different in society, including the civilian world. If you speak out about the abuse, you are the one who suffers the consequences of being the whistleblower. Whether you are the girl who reports the football players in high school, the guy who turns in another for stealing at work, or the woman who reports stalking and bullying, you are going to be on the receiving end of the hell. Unlike in the military, I choose my own destiny now in the civilian world and I absolutely refuse to let others control my freedom of speech with their ‘policies’. I am an American citizen and like all citizens have a right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. That includes the right to free speech and counsel or the right to defend oneself.

Since there is no legal court that I can talk about the impact of what gang stalking has had on me and others on-line, then I will use my right to free speech to address what I feel is outright retaliation, bullying, and stalking. I was prepared for this fight and nothing you say or do is going to impact my happiness. As a matter of fact, I feel so much happier addressing it, facing it head on, and making purposeful decisions. What happens happens. It is God’s will. I will be happy regardless of other people’s actions. I have found that inner strength and will use it.

Everything happens for a reason. I have no regrets in life.  Unlike most, I am not going to submit to another person’s control.  I told the truth and held others accountable just like I did in the military. That will never change. I am not going to remain quiet because those who think they control me are worried that their gang stalking days are going to be revealed. One must always remember to look at their own actions/inactions before they judge those of another. No one will ever control me again. That is my trigger. And whatever consequences that come with doing what I have to do to protect myself is my number one priority.

I can. I will. End of story.

This is the attitude that I have lived by ever since I was a little kid. And because of this attitude and Post Traumatic Stress, I am hardened just the way the military likes us. But, I refuse to let the PTSD control me even though it still does and will to some degree even in the future.

I finally got my mind straightened out but I still deal with the physiological responses associated with having PTSD. My body is literally stuck in fight or flight. And my goal is to finally after all these years learn how to in fact relax. This has been significantly improved by my service dog but I still feel the residual effects of being stuck in fight or flight for years.

As I am healing I am getting more open to confronting the things that are still triggering me. For example, a threatening text from a ‘MST Advocate’, a text from someone asking me what’s going on, a tweet that includes name calling, people exposing my past with PTSD like it’s something to be ashamed of, and finally people who harm others getting promoted by organizations, media, and Congress.

What do we do when we realize that something is triggering us? We either address it head on (fight) or we avoid it and run away (flight). But before I can do either, I first have to work through the freeze. I become so shocked and outraged when anyone treads on me in any way, that I cannot respond the way I would like to. Not only do I not want to act a fool in general but I don’t want these kinds of reactions to confrontation or random attacks like cyberbullying to rule my PTSD response.

I want to in fact let my guard down and let people in. When my PTSD gets triggered, I harden back up in military defensive posture because I realized running away from problems doesn’t solve a damn thing. After the freeze response, which is actually good at this point, I automatically go into fight mode because that is what my body is conditioned to do after years of service in the military.

I needed to be in defensive posture in the military but I don’t now and do not want to be stuck in fight or flight any longer. If I curl up in a ball and go away, who is that going to help? Not me. Not the veterans & troops I help. I don’t serve in the military anymore therefore, I am open to loving and trusting again.

But its pretty damn hard when you have a group of people purposefully targeting you the way the perpetrator in the military did. I never asked for that. And I didn’t ask for this. You have stirred up the hornet’s nest when it comes to being sick and tired of being a good person who appears to be the target of wrongdoers at every corner. It’s time to hold not just the military accountable but society in general.

Cyberbullying Has Significant Impact on PTSD from Military Sexual Trauma (MST)

If it hasn’t become abundantly clear yet, let me make it clear now. Being targeted and stalked by cyberbullies on the internet is a nightmare. And it impacts PTSD from military sexual trauma significantly. It was hard enough to come forward to begin with and it is my intent that we can remedy this situation so that other advocates can replace me without fear of getting cyberbullied.  I want justice for the troops so I am going to stick it out until we get it. In the meantime, I was never expecting the very people that I supported implicitly regardless of who they were would be the very people who would plan my demise in the end. It is the epitome of betrayal. And quite frankly, something I am pretty used to by now.

I seriously thought that the military would be something bigger then me and more honorable then me. I never took into consideration the human element that must always be accounted for: how to deal with those in positions of ‘power’ and/or ‘influence’ who prey on others. Whether it occurs in person while in uniform or on-line from ‘fellow’ veterans, it is not okay to intentionally harm them with aggressive stalking behavior similar to that of our attackers. It is in fact a violation of personal boundaries even if technically not illegal because it is occurring on-line. But in this case, we are definitely at the legal stage.

I will take a stand to help my PTSD. No matter how hard I try to just ignore, it is virtually impossible not to be triggered by a group of bullies disguised as survivors who purposefully are trying to trigger the PTSD. Guess what? It’s working, no doubt about it.  Writing is my only refuge while going through this abuse to document your behavior. I have been literally going insane collecting evidence in a professional manner. I have kept quiet up until now and will not be silenced any more. The silence just like in the military is killing me. If I was anyone but Jennifer Norris, that person may be dead right now.  Who wouldn’t be suicidal when we have our own PTSD to contend with, our families, our pasts, our efforts in a new arena like MST Advocacy, and healing in general?

The funny thing about PTSD therapy and help is that you have to face it head on to deal with it. You have to face all the things that you stuffed down for years. Like most we stuff this down in order to operate in a robotic fashion for the military. But eventually the floodgates open (average is 14 years). And that my friend is the very definition of PTSD. We had to be too strong for too long.  As a veteran, I am going to face the demons head on.  I am going to look PTSD in the face and punch its lights out. I am not going to allow the triggers that you are currently causing to control my life any longer.

You are indeed not helping any of us who are trying to advocate for the troops and veterans while simultaneously taking good care of ourselves. I should be able to go on Facebook without being scared that I will see yet another untruth about me on-line while browsing or someone just randomly attacks me then uses PTSD as an excuse. It is totally triggering to be targeted and even more so if the person goes way out of their way to do it. That is exactly what the predators in the military did!

If I had done anything in the least bit to you I might understand some retaliation but in this particular case, I haven’t done or said anything to you. I am just a veteran who simply wants to help others.  I don’t want money. I don’t want fame. I want change. Nothing you say or do is ever going to stop me from doing what God wants me to do. This is a calling that even I am fearful of and you are not making it any easier. Do not do this to me or to other advocates ever again. And please do not blame THIS on PTSD.  I have PTSD too but I would never harm others the way you have. Ever.

PS Rule #1 if you want to be a MST Advocate, Do NOT share a military sexual trauma survivor’s physical address. And definitely do NOT post it on-line. Remember those same military predators may be looking for us through media hounds like you.