An advocate received this text message from a MST bully. Matthews uses suicide as a way to hold other survivors hostage. It’s not okay and is in fact a form of abuse.
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MST Bully Justifies Abuse By Claiming He Knows The Person He is Abusing, so That’s OK
Shortly after writing a blog entry about JA’s aggressive behavior towards me, I found out that he wrote this about me on Facebook. I don’t know this guy. I testified at the Lackland Hearing in Washington DC. He asked me if I would take a picture with him after I got done presenting. I obliged. This hardly qualifies as knowing me nor does it justify any of the abuse. I believe that he does know me because he has stalked me for months, contacted professionals I work with, told them that I bullied him, discredited me, all so he could present a bill that he had nothing to do with and knows nothing about. It’s one thing to get there on hard work and honor, it’s another to give a perception and step on others to get there. There is no honor in that and anyone that promotes this type of passive, aggressive behavior is part of the problem. Veterans and troops want people with honor representing them. Not people who lie, manipulate, make people feel bad for them, and take, take, take.
Senator Gillibrand Invited MST Bully to Present to Congress
Today, JA is wheeling his way to DC to tell Congress his story. What’s interesting about this is that he circumvented the process and went directly to Gillibrand to get his voice heard after attempting to discredit other women veteran survivors. Obviously his story of being bullied by MST advocates was compelling. Here is the truth. JA is the one bullying others. He bullies women veterans AND other male veterans.
He misleads the public into thinking he is one of the war wounded. His modus operandi is to make others feel bad for him in a rouse to gain sympathy. He is really good. But this is the definition of a con man regardless of what happened to him the past. Rapists are survivors too. That doesn’t excuse their inappropriate, illegal behavior.
JA is the definition of Stolen Valor. He conveniently leaves out of all of his media presentations asking for free shit and attention that he is in a wheelchair after a failed gunshot to the stomach area. He in fact paralyzed himself after shooting himself. Why is he a priority over the war wounded?
While Jeremiah is leading others to believe he is one of the war injured, his injuries were sustained from a self inflicted gunshot would. Why is this important you ask? Because most males who commit suicide shoot themselves in head. He is in fact getting rewarded for surviving an attention seeking action that left him “paralyzed”.
The sad part is that while he leads the media and public to believe that he was the victim, he is in fact the aggressor. He claims he is being bullied but he is the bully. Did he do this in military too? He claims he is the victim yet he inflicted the injury on himself. If not for his behavior to me and others, he would be irrelevant to me. But he aggressed himself in my life and has not let up hence the reason I am finally publicly addressing it. How many others have been harmed by these gang of stalkers?
Honestly, I think everyone has been victimized and duped by these people to include agencies, media, Congress, Hollywood directors, and other survivors. I never let anyone get too close after what I experienced in the military. The first red flag occurred in June 2013 when he aggressed upon me on Twitter with his name calling. Since I have blocked him, he has only become more aggressive and retaliatory.
He has been triggering my PTSD significantly because he has swarmed everyone I come in contact with. After making work announcements on social media, he would then contact them, discredit me by claiming I am bullying him, then weasel his way into the scene. This has happened over and over since June 2013. I not only feel targeted but it affects my physiological responses to PTSD because the behavior is similar to the people I encountered in the military. It puts me right back there because I have no control over these cyberbullies.
For those who have ever reported sexual assault in the military, you know the beat down that comes with doing so. Jeremiah and his gang stalkers have triggered that beat down feeling that makes you feel hopeless. Because they are in other states, it makes prosecution of internet crimes more difficult.
There are a few of us that have documented this behavior at the VA to show how it has impacted our PTSD. Our best chance at justice with Jeremiah et all would be a civil suit. We have all the evidence and documentation. The unfortunate part is that while you are experiencing the abuse, you have to stay strong and document everything. You have to take care of yourself mentally, gain strength, and go at it again only to have Jeremiah contact anyone and everyone to convince them that we are hurting him. He has been professionally stalking me in an attempt to discredit me while trying to push his way to the top. He has stepped on those that helped get him there at our expense. I could care less about how this impacts me in public. I care about the constant purposeful attempts at triggering PTSD and pushing veterans to feeling suicidal and hopeless to stop the aggressive behavior.
How ironic that the guy who is representing veteran suicide is in fact the same guy that is throwing a past PTSD crisis moment in my face and pushing veterans to feeling suicidal with the bullying and abuse.
I wrote this after experiencing months of cyberbullying on Facebook. I pretty much walked away from Facebook to take a break from the abuse and protect myself. Facebook has turned into a trigger. Facebook can be suicidal trigger for some with PTSD
Ironically, MST Community Members Blame the Victim
When all the abuse is one sided and a person finally takes a stand, please do not tell a survivor or victim that you like their abuser. How is that any different then how you felt when you wanted to report the crime to your Commander and they didn’t give a damn. Or maybe you didn’t report because you knew leadership wouldn’t give a damn.
When a victim finally comes forward after months of abuse, we need to embrace them and acknowledge their experiences. Real leaders take a stand and validate when a wrong has been committed. Instead, in this society, we are told that some how the victim must have asked for it. And we all look the other way. No more.
Did working hard for veterans and military justice mean I asked to be a target of small mindedness, pettiness, stalking, and abuse. Why is it that when one finally confronts the truth that anyone would go to someone and say, I know that you think that the abuser has done this or that but I like him. Who says that?
Can you imagine a victim coming to me and me saying, you need to just get along with him? You need to get along with him because this is the military and we have a mission. Now it is we need to get along with him for the movement. Really? Wait until you become a target of these predatorial creatures. When you come to me crying about how he royally screwed you over, I will be sure not to say, we need to all get along.
Asking me to get along with someone who has clearly targeted me and made me the object of their obsession is like asking me to hang out with a rapist on the prowl. Abuse, bullying, lying and manipulating are all traits of rapists and that my friends is unacceptable behavior. The people who abused me in the military called me names too. They also stalked and bullied me.
Why can’t a person have boundaries without being accused of not getting along with jerks. I am not interested in spending my time with people who appear to be entitled, greedy, and mean to others. PTSD is not an excuse to lie, to target others, to act like a fool, or to hold others hostage with threats of suicide.
If you are in the business of blaming victims, you have absolutely no business being an advocate or saying a single word to the person who bravely steps forward. We got this.
What is Stalking?
Let’s talk about stalking. What is it? What does it look like? If a reasonable person is feeling targeted by an individual or group of people then that pretty much qualifies as stalking. Unlike most, I am not fearful of you persay but you targeting me and making my demise your life’s mission is in fact triggering my PTSD. You floating my address around to anyone is putting my family’s safety at risk.
Therefore, if you do not get the hint now, you definitely will soon. This is the end of this crazy train of madness. I would say move on but I never want another veteran in the MST community to be targeted in these devious and insidious ways. It is disgusting that anyone would want to be famous for being raped. Sacrificial lamb my ass.
You really look like the stalkers (internet trolls) that you are and now everyone gets to see what I have been dealing with. What is your problem? Next steps: legal, hence the reason all of this is getting documented on line. Enough is enough. I am angry at the people who have enabled this behavior. I am really angry at those who have looked the other way. Over and over, we heard that it was not their responsibility. Why is that? Don’t want to piss off the Queen Bee? Our veterans health is much more important then your image and strategy.
If you can’t play fair on the playground, then you need to go into timeout. And then check yourself in somewhere, take some meds, smoke some pot, do some yoga, anything but stalk me or other MST survivors. And please do not put these people behind a camera. You are making us all look like fools. We know your story. Start coming up with some solutions. You will become irrelevant. Get over it. You can’t ride this train much longer. But please don’t take us down with you.
I am going in a direction of healing. Your stalking is not helping my healing. In fact I have been documenting exactly how this has impacted PTSD. My husband and I have had it with you throwing our past in our face and compromising the privacy of our address.
Organized Gang Stalking in MST Community
You ever been the target of those that appear to be working as a team simply to hurt others. I have. After getting involved with the MST movement, one day somebody decided that my MST advocacy days were over. And they slowly methodically as a team operated to discredit me with those that mattered. This day and age with the internet, we should be especially cautious of what we say about others especially if not true. Some just don’t seem to care when the vitriol kicks into overdrive. Some would call that impulsive, moody, and a little narcissistic.
I do care. And I do not agree with this behavior in any fashion. If you had done this to one of my clients, I would be beyond angry. You are targeting me and I have no idea why. I am not going anywhere. We get it. You don’t like me. Move on. You do not impact my happiness in the least bit but you are triggering my PTSD significantly because the behavior is so typical of those in the military.
The behavior that I have had to endure the past few months is beyond ignoring at this point. It puts me in the place I felt while serving. I was always singled out despite working hard for one reason or another. I used to wish that I was invisible in the military. It has taken a lot of healing to get to where I am at today. I had all I could do to get over the shame and tackle these subjects head on. How dare you call us media whores after our voices were silenced in such a brutal way. I will be damned if I let another military dude target me, bully me, and push me to feeling suicidal. I could not leave those situations because I had no control over that. But we do have some control now.
I think putting up with this insider attack crap stuff has gone on long enough. If you are making me feel this way, how many others are feeling the same? You don’t have to answer that. I know. I have been cleaning up your messes in your path of destruction. I don’t know how else to stop you other then warn others of your potential to harm. I am witnessing outright abusive behavior from these people and my PTSD cannot handle this. I either face it head on or I walk away from everything.
My health is so much more important to me then any of this. Why can’t I advocate for veterans without being targeted for a take down. That is exactly what serving in military was like. This is America. You do your thing. I do mine. Don’t tread on me.
In the meantime, you keep coming at me, I let everyone on world wide web know what you are like. While you are targeting me and other successful people, we will be fighting rapists, bullies, and abusers like you. I refuse to protect this dirty little secret any longer.
And more text threats from the Anonymous Cyberbullies
Only CB & MM have my number. But this sounds like Jeremiah or obviously someone on behalf of Jeremiah.
How Dare You Call Us MST Media Whores by Wendi Goodman
How Dare You Call Us MST Media Whores by Wendi Goodman
Wendi Goodman wrote this in response to MM’s accusation that the women in the MST movement were ‘media whores’.
MILITARY JUSTICE FOR ALL 